Well...I just read all the stuff I wrote. Although I didn't finish it, I still remember every single moment.
First of all, I want to correct my mistakes. It's not Monstraki; it is Monastiraki. Not olakalo but olakala. And it is better to write poly instead of poli. Those were the only ones I realized. I was just a beginner during I wrote these, so it's pretty normal, now I'm better! :)))
Now, I admit that it was a giant mistake not to finish it but I had acceptable reasons. It's not necessary to talk about it in detail but it was something which made me so sad, humiliated and maybe a little angry. On the other hand, it thought me something; that nobody is like me. I keep living many things which keep teaching me that continiously, but they are not enough I guess. Each time, I decide not to count on someone, not to put him in my shoes and be that much optimistic but as a precious man said last week, if I do the opposite I wouldn't be Yip anymore.
I don't have any specific explanations why I stopped writing. I still don't have as I still don't know the reason for what happened.
Last weekend I was in Athens again. With many differences. Unlike the previous time, I didn't stay in a hotel. Kounoupi (the greatest guy ever! :) ) gave me food and shelter. Of course I paid for those by obeying him like my other 4 brothers.
This time I didn't feel like I'm somewhere else. People and places weren't plenty new for me but Savvas was! In september, I spent a lot of time alone because Katie was working and she had to spent some time with her family. But this time I only had 30 mins or so alone when I went to get my ring repaired. After that, I had a little walk around because I was receiving phone calls about work. While walking around, I realized that I couldn't totally get over some stuff. I was sad while walking in those streets 2 months ago, but now I was angry. My brain was again working properly like before but this time my heart was full of anger and confusement. There were some pinpoints for me around there, and I as saw them again, I realized that my feelings changed a lot. I was now over the sadness and sense of humiliation but I lost my understanding. 2 months ago, I was saying that I can understand what happened although understanding doesn't mean agreement. But 2 months later, I could easily see that I cannot either understand anymore. So, I just got rid of everything by walking on those places over and over again. I certainly left everything in there. Now, I don't have a single little piece left. This alone 30 mins was very effective because of that...when I felt free and relaxed, I turned back to my friends to see their peaceful faces.
I'm writing this as a closing post for the first trip. That's why I won't give any other details about my very last one. I can only say that it was extremely happy and I'm a very very lucky Yip.
End of the story. Bye Athens for the first time!
